day 11 fasting dreams

....i think this topic deserves its own blog if you asked me....since i started my fast 11 days ago my dreams have been so vivid that they remain with me long after i wake up....i also find that the central theme revolves around some kind of food....last night i had the most bizarre one...it would take an eternity to paint this picture.....suffice it to say that i turned into a giant black  FLYING snake.....and somehow in the midst of all the craziness i was eating chocolate chip cookies and milk in a giant plate...i know where my brain is getting the chocolate chip cookie dream from....from my job....every morning we get GIANT freshly baked chocolate cookies at work...complementary, and you can have as many as you want...i generally avoid that area because the delicious smell will just fuck up my whole day...especially since im a sucker for junk food....i see, smell, and watch other people eat those cookies EVERY DAY.....which is just wrong...but what can i do...plus they are right next to the coffee machine which means that i cannot avoid seeing them whenever i need my espresso fix......anyhow IM DOING GREAT!! i honestly feel like a million bucks.....maybe its the extra shakeology that i had yesterday, maybe its the extra calories from the milk....i dont know.all i know is that i feel WONDERFUL!  

day 10

i had 2 shakeologys today with fat free milk....nuff said

day 9

...i woke up with a headache this morning.....i think i might be dehydrated....im making some black coffee to drink.nothing like coffee to pick you up...iv also noticed that im sleeping less and less as the fast progresses.before i started my fast 6hrs would leave me sleepy all day now im literally jumping out of bed before the sun comes out.Im usually up by 6am now....im CONSTANTLY hungry but shakeology helps out ALOT! by the time this fast is over il be a cold water and black coffee addict...

DAY 8

................woke up and all i could think about was water...coly icy water!....i feel great!

day 7

..........i made it to a week......7 days....that sounds good...i can safely say that yesterday was just about the toughest day so far....i had another weird dream last night....i had bought 20$ tennis shoes on ebay and they arrived to me dirty, they were old, very old and the soles of the shoes had holes in them.....and when i looked at my bank statement i had been charged 200$ for shipping and handling.....why im i having these kinds of dreams? i never remember my dreams...until now.......this is hard......i feel weak all the time...im nauseated all the time.....but iv come too far to quit...its amazing how important food is to our general well being.i feel so bad for anyone who has to go without food for an extended period of time.Its just not right.

RESPECT

.............to everyone who has gone without food for an extended period of time...RESPECT!......im struggling today.....i just dont feel right.....

saturday afternoon watching adam richman devouring different BBQ challenges ....i cant stop watching........if i cant eat i might as well watch someone else do it.....lol

day 6 begins

.................i had another weird food dream this morning...i was eating sticks of gum dipped in ranch dressing that had spilled inside my purse....on a happier note my legs are feeling much better...i think i may have just needed a good night sleep....i keep thinking that i have it much easier than those poor people that were thrown in Nazi concentration camps who had barely anything to eat and hours of hard labor each day...not eating has put me in quite a reflective mood....i was thinking the other day that unlike my fasting which i CHOOSE to do, there are people to whom hunger and the quest for food is a daily struggle..i can understand this better now having deprived myself of food for 6 days.I couldnt imagine living hungry for years...at some point i will make my contribution to ending world hunger..

end of day 5

...............i feel like shit....my legs hurt.....especially around the knee area....im not hungry at all but i think i may be a little dehydrated.....the good news is that i tested my pee for ketones for the first time since i started my fast and it turned the test strip dark purple so i know for sure that my glycogen stores are depleted and im burning fat like crazy......ketone strips are pretty nifty to have around...off to bed now...

day 5

day 5/30 of my fast....i feel ok.the one crucial mistake i made last night was not drinking my shakeology.i tossed around in bed for an hour before i could sleep.i dont have any cravings but i did have a weird dream about food last night.i dreamed that i had gone to my friends house jenny and eaten a buttered croissant and fucked up my fast.. in my dream i had forgotten about my fast and i was soooo mad at myself when i realised what had happened....im doing ok although the nausea that i feel everytime i drink water is worrying.....

i was up on my feet and running around for non-stop for 5hrs....the first 3 hours was pure torture.i had no energy and i felt like my legs were made of lead....despite having drunk my 1/2 of shakeology right before my shift began...the next 2 hours were much better although i started feeling REALLY REALLY HUNGRY.somehow i was able to get some more energy from i dont know where....The worst thing about my day is that now that im home i really dont feel like my tummy can take the other 1/2 of shakeology....i dont feel like having anything in my mouth....even water.I had some water earlier and felt instantly nauseated....im feeling good though.....day four DONE.......DONE!

day 4 of 30 begins.....i woke up a few minutes ago with a skip in my step.....i have so much energy....dont know where thats coming from.All i now is that shakeology has something to do with that.my mind has "dissociated" from food....im feeling good.i have no cravings and im still not hungry....the hollow feeling in the pit of my tummy is gone.....i also haven't had a bowel movement in the 4 days that iv been fasting although i can understand why....anyways lets see what the day has in store for me!!

........day 3 of 30 of my fast is almost over.....im feeling good today.....my cravings are gone...GONE.....three days with nothing but water and shakeology....im feeling really good.I was slightly nauseated in the afternoon though but that didn't last for too long.im excited for day 4.... i can probably throw in some yoga tomorrow but i think that il stick to my original plan and hold off on all workouts for a while....

the food craving persists

...........i can do this...............i can do this.......i can do this....................why did i turn the food channel on?!........im not hungry, i just wanna eat!...maybe i am hungry and dont know it.......anyways i already had my half portion of shakeology and im saving the rest for bedtime.....i also made the mistake of chewing some gum....AGAIN and it made me hungrier! im a dummy like that! anyways the day is almost over.....day 2 has been a tough one......i haven't gotten to the point of desperation yet...i know its coming though...but i also know that once i get over that hill the hunger goes away......so i CHOOSE to hang in there!

fasting......

Hi folks.......today marks my second day in my 30 day fasting journey....i feel pretty good.I was slightly weak when i woke up this morning but i took half of my shakeology (mixed in with about 20OZ of water and some stevia) and i feel much better.I allow myself a packet of shakeology a day which i divide into two.....i take one half for lunch and the other right before bed.Its about 150cals but it keeps me full.I have the chocolate flavored shakeology and man, i dont know how id have made it past the first 24hrs without it......Im not hungry, i just have certain food cravings...Im super excited to be doing this...Im laying off exercising this week until i figure out how my body adjusts to the fast. I'l start testing my pee for ketones in a few days once the glycogen stores in my muscles are depleted.That should be exciting!